Things Happen...

I've never been a person who gets easily flustered/frustrated. I suppose for a large part of my life I have lived out of a controlled chaos (if thats even plausible). So that when things happen that are beyond my control occur I can addresss it and move on appropriately. For the better part of 5 years I have lived in this chaotic whim. WHY? Partly because I feed off of it. Is it healthy? For now in this time I don't see it as harmful but if it is fostered further it can be what I call "Nothing good ever happens to me" Syndrome. It could lead me to a vicious cycle of sabotoge wherein I could no longer operate a healthy lifestyle.
I have never been one to blame God either. I came to an understanding years ago that things happen outside the intended will of God. If everything that happen was God's doing, then we might as well call him, Freddy Krueger (Got that one from Rybarczyk). That doesn't mean that God cannot find Glory in whatever trial or fault of mine/anyone elses. Simply put, I"m just trying to figure shtuff out!

Friday Night's Outing

Last friday night Jami and I had the priviledge nay the honor/enjoyment of going out to eat with Alex and Jen Mclean. We had been trying to get together for the longest time and friday seemed to work out perfectly.
We decided to go out to eat at the "Elephant Bar" in San Marcos. OH boy was it good. Good company + good food + beverages = crazy delicious. We can't wait to hang out with them again especially for the car rides (DJ JAZZY JEN). HEY OH!

Monday's Scattered Thoughts

I went to Petco Park for the first time on Saturday to see the Dodgies take on the Padres. (I"m a huge Dodgies Fan) First off, what a beautiful ballpark, the sun was shining perfectly, illuminating this most gorgeous stadium. Unfortunately the dodgies lost but it was a good game.
On to my thoughts: I don't fully understand the idea behind the die-hard fans. You know those guys that you sit in front of you with their 5th cup of beer and it's only the 3rd inning and they are screaming and making fun of the other team's fans in the stands. Well lets just say you get two of those guys, fans of opposing teams, and you put them within a 5-10 person radius. You know something is bound to happen. Needless to say I think it's ridiculous. THe brut vs. brut mentality. I just don't get it.
I had a guy sitting in front of me who would keep make comments because I had my dodgers Jersey & hat on. And the only reason I think he said anything was because the Padres were winning. I just laughed, I thought it was funny. I thought to myself who is this guy? Someone take him off the tap.
So with all that said, whats the point?!

Monday's Scattered Thoughts

I know it is wednesday alreay but I was out sick so without further a do.

I really don't have any desire to make more money! Crazy huh? I was thinking about it the other day. There is only one thing I desire when it comes to finances, no more SCHOOL LOANS! And for the next 10-15 years I have payments to make. I don't regret my loans, it helped me get the education I desired so I'm happy about that. But still it would be nice to have some freed up cash flow.

Also out of that same thought process, I came to realize that I really have no aspiring career. Sure ministry would be great but that just doesn't seem realistic at this time. I love my job, don't get me wrong, I should probably complain a lot less than I do. I pretty much grew up that way though. I never had these dreams of being a cop or a fireman or a doctor or lawyer. Maybe thats because I thought I would be a sports star (5'10 white guy in the NBA, please!)Plus I didn't have the heart/work ethic. So, here I am waiting...

Last thought:
My wife inspired me this weekend. She said that she was going to train to run a marathon. Now I wasn't inspired in the sense of getting in shape, I'm not really motivated in that way. It was just like all of the sudden she had this goal, and automatically it was decided she would persue it. She called her friend to help her get back into shape and she is on that journey. So now I am on a quest to find goals..........

Finding Inspiration

I have always had this dream.... that someday I would be this great song writer/muscian. I don't really feel like a have that great of a voice so that was never part of the dream to sing but ehhh.
I first started playing the guitar about 3 years ago out of a crazy whim, also there was only one other person to lead worship for my Youth group, so I wanted to help. So at first it was exciting, I was playing everyday 2 or 3 hours just trying to master certain chords. It continued like that until I finished college.
Now I have always been a writer. I love to write. I wouldn't say that I am exceptional at it but I can hold my own. So within those first two years I felt like I was writing and playing, creative juices were flowing. But now I just can seem to find that edge, that appeal of melodies/words... I try to find inspiration in different types of music, artist that I respect lyrically/muscianship but I feel so unmotivated.
Perhaps it is just a stage... and I will find my niche again, somehow, somewhere...

How/where do you find your inspiriation?

Buckhead Church Rock Band

I saw this and I just had to post it. Check it out!

SUPER FRIES!!!

So after much deliberation about what to eat for lunch, I decided to meander down the street to "Great Western Burrito" a.k.a "Alberto's" off of Front Street by the Ramada Inn. Can I just tell you how pleased I am that I went there. So mid-meander I just start craving carne asada fries, so the meander moves to a brisky skip to my lue if you will. All the while whistling "Thinking of You" by the Umbrellas (good group, give em a listenin too). So I approach the window, ding the bell and wait in anticipation. IN my inability to focus I do notice something below Carne Asada Fries on the menu, SUPER FRIES!! What the freak? What the hell are Super Fries? SO I ask, and she says to me so eloquently, "Es Fries, Carne Asada, Sour Crem y Guacamole y Chees". I think to myself "Man you had me Super Fries". So I say, "That sounds good I think I will have that". So I wait and I wait, wait a little bit longer, then I see her motion for me to come over and she asked me if I wanted anything to drink because it had taken so long. So I say "hells yah I do, make it a Jamaica". Maybe not like that but I was pretty stoked. I took a drink and wow my taste buds were swimming in goodness. Finally my food comes and I make my trek back to work. By this time I am just ready to rip into this motha. I open it and it was seriuosly the most glorious meeting. (other than that with my wife) Got a fork and chowed down. SOoooooooo GOOD!
I highly recommend if you have no been. But with that there is a disclaimer: You have to block out like 3 hours for later.
I enjoyed and hope someday you will too!